The floor is not lava

Posted by kc on April 21, 2011 in On the edge |

I’m feeling much better today, thanks for asking. Yesterday was a bear. I got all caught up with worries and fears and anxieties and it took hours and some good talking and soul-searching to get out of it.

But I wasn’t wholly honest with you. I left out something very important — a shameful secret I have long tried to pretend doesn’t exist.

I have a problem with impulse control shopping. I like to buy things. There’s an odd satisfaction about clicking “submit payment” when I find something I want online, or even carrying home some new item from a store.

I could do that when I worked at CNN — I made a good salary, and took care of the bills. But there’s a price to pay. I should have thousands of dollars socked away to get me through this lean period, but I don’t, because I can’t let money burn a hole in my pocket, which, of course, it can’t do.

The Big Gray Kitty sometimes can’t walk on the floor — it’s lava, you know. He must go along the furniture to reach his destination. That burning a hole in the pocket thing is a little like thinking the floor is lava. It’s not, but it’s a good excuse.

I’m telling you this because I don’t want to pretend it doesn’t exist anymore. I’ve decided to try to divert my impulse shopping to impulse list making. When I see something I’d like to have, I’ll put it on the list. Later, maybe — if I still want it and some free cash come along — I’ll get it. But the impulse buying has got to go. It was, after all, at the very root of yesterday’s panic attack.

Now if I can only convince the BGK that the floor isn’t lava. This walking across the back of the sofa thing is getting annoying.



  • Doug G says:

    Not lava, says you!

    Just like we try to tell Lola every noise she hears outside is not zombies. She’d no doubt argue that her incessant barking is the very reason we’ve not been swarmed by the living dead. And our complaints are the thanks she gets. Huff!

    Glad today’s less craptastic.

  • going to the library often and getting a whole armload of new and old wonderful books (for 2 weeks or so) is another alternate path for this flooring/pocket burning reality.

  • kc says:

    Jeez, Doug, why would Lola be worried about zombies, eh? Just get her a goose.

    True, Leslita. Also catching up on In Plain Sight, just so I can watch Mary McCormack who is awfully hot. Well, actually, I have no idea what Mary McCormack is actually like, but her character is my kinda girl. Tall, blonde and anti-social.

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